back seat riding

I'm in a mini limo on my way to the doctor's office. My driver smells like dollar store cologne. Lots of it. Ugh! Honestly? Must you bathe in it? Can u just use a bar of dial soap and call it good?

Uhoh Vanessa Carlton's on the radio. He likes this song. He turned down the intercom from his job.

I'm so not feeling the day. I think it's mostly because today is the day Morgan was supposed to come. And now I have to wait til march and it isn't fair but life isn't fair I suppose. And your plans don't always turn out the way they are supposed to. And on top of all that I don't think I got my stipend today.

Why do bad things happen to wonderful people? I mean this is nothing. Compared to most of the world I've got it pretty damn good. Look where I am. Riding in a mini limo while the scene of the Astoria projects passes me by. This is fairly surreal don't u think?

Watched Grey's last night. Seriously? So much drama on that show. Sometimes I don't know how they think of it all. Derek's sister was hilarious! For half the show I couldn't figure out who the hell she was and then it came to me in the middle of the show. Miss Honey! From Matilda. I love that movie.

Anyway that's the update from the back seat.

broken. not broke.

The outpouring of concern for my health and well being from the very second I broke my ankle has been abundant and has really helped me to realize how rich in love I am. I'm all patched up now and I think that with the continued prayers and well wishes I'll be back in action in no time. You should see me on crutches. Seriously. I'm a pro already.

I may be going home to hawthorne for a few days so be on the lookout for some moaning and groaning about how much I despise L.A. My doc said it'd be best to wait until I got my sutures(sp?) out before I flew home so I'll know more after nov. 3. I'm on vicodin and aspirin to reduce pain and swelling respectively. And it's tough passing the minutes on the couch but it's gotta be done I suppose.



I keep dreaming about my job. Who does that?

my other home has 24 industrial dryers

i'm so thirsty. i'm not getting enough liquids i know. because i'm too busy scratching myself and scrounging for a meal. ah ... the new york life.

there is a box in a townhouse in hawthorne and it needs to be shipped to me. everyone that lives in that house disabled so if you feel the need to help out i would give you all the love i can muster up from the depths of my heart because i don't make any money.

i've been to the classic laundromat so much in the past 3 weeks that the people who work here probably know me by name. they probably have lengthy conversations about their customers including that one black girl who always brings her laundry in plastic garbage bags and scratches her arms while she waits. i think ethan hawke filmed one of his movies here because there are 2 framed pictures of him and the guy who played trey in sex and the city with very dramatic looks on their faces.

yesterday i had to get out of the bug infested house so i just walked from the apple store (my second home) to union square down 5th avenue. there i sat in the park and read until some random guy announced that it was going to rain. it didn't rain but i ran for cover anyway into the cafe at whole foods. those nyu kids have it good. a whole foods and a trader joe's within seconds of each other. i think i spotted kiera knightley's husband from love actually while i was walking through the park yesterday. i'm pretty sure it was him. he has pretty distinct features.

work was hell today because i spent half the previous night sleeping on the kitchen table to keep from getting bit more. and i spent half the day on a return from the drowsy state that generic atarax produces because i took it at 3:30am and had to be out the door at 8:15am to get to my supervisors house by 10am. ugh. and i felt nauseous all day long.

i'm in the process of disinfecting my room. i don't think the fumigation job done 3 weeks ago was very thorough so i'm taking matters into my own hands. my new motto for everything pretty much is "if you want something done right you gotta do it yourself." if the bugs come back this time however i am all about moving to another location. there's no harm in asking anyway. all i know is i cannot go another night of sleeping on the kitchen table. the situation has surpassed ridiculous.

on the other hand. i love new york and have never felt so astonished and so alive as i have with every moment i spend in this place.

oh hey! i will be attending the soa watch for the first time ever this year. if anyone's going, call me. that's the update. i'm tired.