decisions, decisions, decisions.

Finish what I start. Stop thinking about things that are not worth my time. Write songs. Sleep less. Take more walks. Save when I can, where I can. Smell good. Make new friends. Keep old friends. Study vogue like it is my job. Write much much much more. Cook more. Allow myself to be inspired daily.

lauren and the invisibles

Today is Christmas. And everything is going as planned. I woke up this morning. Made a lovely breakfast. Had a hot cup of chai. Chatted with my mommy. Checked the movie times and bought a ticket online for the 215 show. I hustled out of the house and on to the train. The movie was sold out when I get here so I was pumped that I bought my ticket before I left. Hooray for Fandango! I'm getting ready to take my seat in the disabled section and this bitch just rolls up behind me like she doesn't see me and my bright blue purse and TAKES MY SEAT! I just walked across the theater to another seat as she called after me. Fuck you lady. Take the seat. Then she tried to come and tell me to take the seat after she's found somewhere better to sit. I can't stand people. But I'm not going to let it ruin my day.

Merry Christmas everyone. Hope you're celebrating the birth of our Lord with the ones you love and basking in the true spirit of the holiday. And if you're not Christian ... Hope you have a chill day off ... And if you're still working for the man ... Sucks to be you baby, but this too shall pass.

it sucks to be you, michael richards

i was flipping channels last night and paused on tbs to catch an episode of seinfeld. and while i don't want to judge this man ... it's ruined for me now. can't stand to see the guy on tv. i thought it wouldn't bother me at all to see old episodes of the show and to see krazy cosmo. i just can't bring myself to do so. the idea of supporting the career of someone who has so much hatred within him. it just doesn't sit well with me. and all the rage that spewed out of him came flooding back. the screaming "he's a nigger! he's a nigger!" is still ringing in my head.i imagine if i had a friend who revealed such awful inner feelings that i would have to abandon them in the same way. and his apology doesn't do anything for me. i don't care that he's sorry to whoever he offended. he needs to start feeling sorry for himself. i sure feel sorry for him. and i'll keep praying for him because that's all i can do.