I just said bye to two of my closest friends today. It's happening in sequential order from last to first friend. I said bye to Lauren first in May, then Cristina and I had our last shopping trip in So. Cal today before she takes off to Rome. Then Donisha and I hit up The Grove and Coldstone's (YUM!) before she leaves tomorrow morning for The Bend. Denise is supposed to come around sometime this week and then when she comes to my house we'll go see Judy.
I love my friends. They all are so special to me in such different ways. I know I'm going to do big thangs this semester it's just the feel of this year. we're halfway there. We're half full on the college education tip. This is the tipping point. I don't even know how things are gonna be when I get back. I'm not afraid though. Just not ready for the changes. You better believe I'm ready to leave though! I would get on that plane today if I could. AND I just figured out that I have a mid-semester break during which I will be exiting the old country to go ... somewhere ... shit everywhere I can!
I was talking to Cristina earlier about just not giving a fuck when I leave. Which in all honesty will more than likely be the case. I'm not a sap (anymore). Shit that used to make me emotional simply does not move me anymore. Does that mean I'm unfeeling, cold, and heartless? NO! I just have a better outlook on things. I don't look at the present and say "Oh this sucks" I look at the present and say "Look what I'm going to have to look forward to in the future." My friends keep me going. They give me hope for that next phase in my life. I'd be really depressed if I dwelled in the present all the time. Everything's going to change when I get back. That's the point! This is life-changing! Do not weep or sulk for what you leave behind. Rejoice for what awaits when you return.
Still ... It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday (but I'll suck it up for a trip to Europe anyday of the week)
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