i feel so small

all of a sudden there is this air between me and some of my friends. it's so obvious that i don't fit in anymore. people they've known for so much less time than they've known me have become their best friends. but wait a minute while i agonize some more. i know i'm blessed i just can't even think about how i've been replaced by a boyfriend or a greek life. is this selfish of me? maybe i need to make some new friends or get a boyfriend but i don't want to do what my "friends" are doing to me. this is normal i suppose but i am interested in the logic behind ignoring, avoiding, forgetting me. god i suck so much. i need to get over this shit and move on. i need to pray. i need to stop being so needy. the world doesn't revolve around me and friendships will come and go. i have to accept that. but i still want to cry for friendships lost and feelings ignored. it hurts to not be considered desirable anymore.