Change

Change and I obviously have had a change in agreement. We used to do OK. We got along. We got on fine. For some reason any switch in routine completely throws me for a loop. I get off of work early, I see Dom who I haven't seen in freaking ages. She's studying for the MCAT...oy! Then I continue to sit in Xroads and try my hand at this short story thing. I feel good about it. I don't know how rape came to me but I think I'll roll with it. Is it wrong that I'm writing "notes" while my Women In Developing Countries professor lectures. This is a really great class but I'm kind of over it. Anyway so yeah change ... After I failed my Spanish oral, I cried a little and talked to my mom. She always makes me feel better just because she's crazy. I can't wait for Spring Break so I can see her and relax and get off the grind for awhile. Directing class was equally depressing as we discussed the current government and this fucked up play we're reading. We got out early. I went to UM to hang out. Just as I was getting comfortable, Mike tap tap taps on the UM window. I hope he didn't see how stunned I was. I feel like my face made a shape it wasn't used to. I got up to go say hi after the initial shock subsided. He's beautiful. I'm glad we're friends in the end though. Clare thinks we should get married. That would never work. We'd kill each other. I hope he's happy. I thought things woule change once I left and came back. But we both changed and the situation's the same. We're still these polar opposites I feel. There's something he just does to me. I get all trembly like a scared little girl after I behold him ... even for a second.