I forgot that I remembered to forget you

So this guy that I had a crush on for a really long time IMed me out of the blue the other day. The box from AIM popped up that's like "so and so has sent you an instant message 'Accept' or 'Reject'" I thought to myself ... no wonder I haven't seen him online. He's usually on and idle with an away message. OMG! I totally took you off my buddy list and completely forgot that I remembered to forget you! ... I'm so proud of myself. Then he asks me this question. I said to my computer screen "If you talked to me, you would know this shit!" It was a short conversation. He had to go. WHATEVER! Why did he make me think of him? Now he's on my buddy list again until I get up the courage to remember to forget again. DAMN! I hope he doesn't read this. He's not as dumb as most boys I know. He knows how to put two and two together. Well even if he does I don't give a damn! That's how I feel. If I don't talk to you and you never initiate a conversation with me and I'm always the one initiating conversations then one day I'm gonna see the light and not waste my time anymore. It's a waste of oxygen to call someone a friend or "buddy" when you're the one giving giving giving and they're the one taking taking taking. I'm a generous person but I'm not an idiot and I know how to take a hint. Is taking someone off my buddy list cold? I don't think so. If you only use the shit to promote yourself and let people know that you are distant and unavailable why take up my precious buddy space with your screenname? How 'bout dem apples!