Thursday, July 15, 2004

Starving for stimulation

I want a boyfriend ... I know, I know you've heard it all before! ... for real this time though.I'm lonely as hell here. Can I just get a nice young man who is doing things. A guy who thinks about me every now and then. Somebody who wants to hold my hand. Most of all I just need some mind sex. Some mental stimulation. Someone to keep it up until the sun rises or my head falls on a pillow fully satisfied. It's killing me. I haven't had good conversation with a guy in so long. I'm really starting to worry about their entire species. Are they not capable of holding conversation anymore? What is the issue? I'd like to know. I don't need you to buy me nice things ... When it comes down to it I'm a simple girl with really simple needs: faithfulness, a hand to hold, ears to listen, a mouth to speak intelligently. Why is that so hard to give? I'm OK on my own but the thing is ... I've been on my own for my entire life. Yeah I've had the occasional guy to date and kiss but where's the satisfaction in just going to dinner or a movie? Where's the guy who cares about me as a person, who has goals and aspirations and wants to share all of them with me? Am I asking too much? Please let me know, because I still think it's a very simple request. I've never been one to really wait around for opportunity to knock on my door. Ask all of my past crushes. Maybe I'm going about it all wrong. I've tried the be-demure-do-your-own-thing-because-they-always-come-when-you're-not-looking road. That didn't help! I did my thing all year, made sure I didn't have time to look for or think about looking for a guy. HELLO!! Still single! Maybe things will change when I leave. I love going to new places because this is a chance to re-invent myself. Somebody's gotta come through in London or maybe I'll just come back different and that'll open me up to a new possibility or two in the city. I'm still frustrated though! I've got 7 weeks before I go there. That's a long time of talking to myself. Ok i'm done venting ... for now

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