it sucks to be you, michael richards

i was flipping channels last night and paused on tbs to catch an episode of seinfeld. and while i don't want to judge this man ... it's ruined for me now. can't stand to see the guy on tv. i thought it wouldn't bother me at all to see old episodes of the show and to see krazy cosmo. i just can't bring myself to do so. the idea of supporting the career of someone who has so much hatred within him. it just doesn't sit well with me. and all the rage that spewed out of him came flooding back. the screaming "he's a nigger! he's a nigger!" is still ringing in my head.i imagine if i had a friend who revealed such awful inner feelings that i would have to abandon them in the same way. and his apology doesn't do anything for me. i don't care that he's sorry to whoever he offended. he needs to start feeling sorry for himself. i sure feel sorry for him. and i'll keep praying for him because that's all i can do.

back seat riding

I'm in a mini limo on my way to the doctor's office. My driver smells like dollar store cologne. Lots of it. Ugh! Honestly? Must you bathe in it? Can u just use a bar of dial soap and call it good?

Uhoh Vanessa Carlton's on the radio. He likes this song. He turned down the intercom from his job.

I'm so not feeling the day. I think it's mostly because today is the day Morgan was supposed to come. And now I have to wait til march and it isn't fair but life isn't fair I suppose. And your plans don't always turn out the way they are supposed to. And on top of all that I don't think I got my stipend today.

Why do bad things happen to wonderful people? I mean this is nothing. Compared to most of the world I've got it pretty damn good. Look where I am. Riding in a mini limo while the scene of the Astoria projects passes me by. This is fairly surreal don't u think?

Watched Grey's last night. Seriously? So much drama on that show. Sometimes I don't know how they think of it all. Derek's sister was hilarious! For half the show I couldn't figure out who the hell she was and then it came to me in the middle of the show. Miss Honey! From Matilda. I love that movie.

Anyway that's the update from the back seat.

broken. not broke.

The outpouring of concern for my health and well being from the very second I broke my ankle has been abundant and has really helped me to realize how rich in love I am. I'm all patched up now and I think that with the continued prayers and well wishes I'll be back in action in no time. You should see me on crutches. Seriously. I'm a pro already.

I may be going home to hawthorne for a few days so be on the lookout for some moaning and groaning about how much I despise L.A. My doc said it'd be best to wait until I got my sutures(sp?) out before I flew home so I'll know more after nov. 3. I'm on vicodin and aspirin to reduce pain and swelling respectively. And it's tough passing the minutes on the couch but it's gotta be done I suppose.



I keep dreaming about my job. Who does that?