get up get out get something

I am boot free. Finally. It's still a little tough walking. I can't quite go for a run or anything but everything's a little brighter, the music's a little louder and the days are a little longer without the giant boot weighing me down. Maybe now I can start to focus on more important things, like paying my bills and getting into FIT. I'm just waiting for the rest of my application to show up in the mail.

I am so pumped because my love Cristina is on the same coast as me. I miss San Francisco. And my san francisco friends. But I can't say I'm not happy to be here. I'm bowled over with joy and excitement because everyday I wake up is everyday closer to making my dreams come true. And any bad day here is better than anyday at home. I'm doing it. I may have been slow going but all I can think about is how I did it. I escaped. And going back to my class reunion and just shining. Because shoes don't matter anymore. Who you hang out with doesn't matter anymore. I don't live by the standards of people my age. I make my own rules. Try and stop me.

decisions, decisions, decisions.

Finish what I start. Stop thinking about things that are not worth my time. Write songs. Sleep less. Take more walks. Save when I can, where I can. Smell good. Make new friends. Keep old friends. Study vogue like it is my job. Write much much much more. Cook more. Allow myself to be inspired daily.

lauren and the invisibles

Today is Christmas. And everything is going as planned. I woke up this morning. Made a lovely breakfast. Had a hot cup of chai. Chatted with my mommy. Checked the movie times and bought a ticket online for the 215 show. I hustled out of the house and on to the train. The movie was sold out when I get here so I was pumped that I bought my ticket before I left. Hooray for Fandango! I'm getting ready to take my seat in the disabled section and this bitch just rolls up behind me like she doesn't see me and my bright blue purse and TAKES MY SEAT! I just walked across the theater to another seat as she called after me. Fuck you lady. Take the seat. Then she tried to come and tell me to take the seat after she's found somewhere better to sit. I can't stand people. But I'm not going to let it ruin my day.

Merry Christmas everyone. Hope you're celebrating the birth of our Lord with the ones you love and basking in the true spirit of the holiday. And if you're not Christian ... Hope you have a chill day off ... And if you're still working for the man ... Sucks to be you baby, but this too shall pass.